Mase cepat berlalu tanpe aku sedari. Hari bersilih ganti, aku masih mencari arah hidup. Ape yang pasti, hidup ini penuh dengan dugaan dan cabaran. Tak siape tahu ape yang akan berlaku dalam hidup mereka.

Cuma satu harapan aku, aku mahukan kejayaan dalam hidup sambil mengenal erti kehidupan. Aku akan bersiap sedia untuk melalui hari-hari yang mendatang yang aku sendiri belum pasti cabaran-cabaran dan dugaan yang akan aku rempuh sepanjang kehidupan akan datang. Mudah-mudahan, Allah memberikan petunjuk buat aku. Biarlah masa yang lalu pergi berlalu, apa yang penting adalah mase depan. Kenangan manis dan pahit akan menjadi pengajaran dalam hidup. Ia akan menjadi satu panduan buat aku untuk mengejar impian aku.

Let time shows everything and it begins now!

I suggest to those who are having a small random access memory (RAM) not to use multi tab in firefox. For some particular reason, firefox will use up a lot of memory. This can be explained by the figure below ;

My Task Manager

I’m running 7 tabs in one Firefox browser. Can you imagine if I try to run 14 tabs? hahaha.. You do the math :P.

Regarding to this matter, I have decided to tell him that our landlord is going to let him stay. This is ridiculous, but I have no choice. After seeking for some advice from some friends and family members, aku ambil keputusan untuk tidak berlaku kejam. Not because of I am weak or felt pity on him, but because of my humanity. Enough said.

As for usual, it’s almost 4:00 AM and I’m still awake! Gosh, why issit so hard for me to sleep? I’m having this difficulty since November last year. It’s going to be hard for me to deal with later.

Back from loitering, I sat in front of this laptop till now. Browsing and browsing and browsing. Oh, just now I’ve booked a return ticket from KUL - TGG - KUL on 14th November. It will be my first time flying with Air Asia. I hope it is safe to fly with Air Asia, hehehe.. Tak tau lah aku boleh cuti ke tidak hari tu since Am a new staff there. Hopefully the management will approve my leave *sigh*.

Puas aku duk bace blog orang, then aku post kat blog sendiri pulak. Life journey hari ni tak banyak cos aku bangun tido dah dekat pukul 3:00 PM. Hari ni aku buat hutang lagi, pinjam RM30 from my aunty. Not funded well this month, still sakit untuk bertapak. I’m waiting for my salary and will pay the debts lump sum. We (dayah and me) have calculated our debts which giving out a total of RM730++. How are we going to survive next month with a left of RM1200++? Car installment was not included in the calculation yet *horrified*.

It’s okay tho, next month I will try to fix our financial track. Maybe I can start the first step on fixing the financial by register my name to AKPK *grin* and start joining my friends in FOREX Fund *bigger grin*.

Finally, my car is back to normal! hehe.. After 3 days I left ’her’ behind the office parking lot. Cost to repair, RM25 for the ‘kepala bateri’. RM40 for the MBKT parking ticket! What in the world! The cost to repair my car was cheaper than the parking ticket, hahaha..

After changing the ‘kepala bateri’, I am so happy because I don’t have to knock the ‘kepala bateri’ anymore everytime I want to start ‘her’. Now, I’m sitting at home and surfing the internet without need to think of ‘her’ problem anymore. I was quite afraid of leaving ‘her’ alone there previously

Aku rasa tindakan yang aku ambik ni adalah berpatutan. Aku rasa, dia tak layak untuk tinggal di rumah sekarang memandangkan rumah tu aku yang cari. Dia hanya cuci kaki je masuk rumah tu. Semua kelengkapan dah disediakan. Adakah itu satu keadilan? Aku rase dia patut merasa susah hidup dengan kaki sendiri.

Cukuplah rasanya aku menyediakan semua keperluan untuknya. Tidak pernah terdetik pun di hatinya untuk menolong meringankan beban aku. Tujuan aku berbuat demikian bukanlah kerana hasad dengki ataupun revenge, akan tetapi sebagai satu pengajaran buatnya. Harapan aku agar dia dapat berdikari dan hidupnya tidak bergantung pada orang lain.

Aku masih dalam pertimbangan untuk memberitahu perkara sebenar ataupun tidak. Let time shows everything to him. Aku rasakan ini satu keadilan buat aku.

I know that all of us hate spammers. They make our email inbox crowded. Some of the spam mails are captured spam but some of them were not. I will let you know how to prevent of being spam by spammers.

Tips :
1. Don’t publish/reveal your email address to public.
2. Use [at] instead of (@) or [dot] instead of (.).
3. If you really want to publish your email, make sure that your email is in image format — *.jpg, *.png, *.tif, *.bmp and so on.
4. Open your email account and mark all the spam mails that trapped in your inbox. Tick them and report them as spam. Make sure you tick on the right mail.

To make the world wide web a better and safer place to hang out.

At first aku rasa guilty sebab aku buat dia macam tu. But after all I realize that if I don’t do this, he might not change into a better person. Aku still ada humanity, tapi dia masih tak sedar ape mistake dia. Hopefully dengan cara menjauhkan diri dapat mengubah dia menjadi someone.

Some of my friends will think that I’m cruel. Well I’m not like what you think. Dia masih tak berubah dan mungkin sekarang become worse kot. Balik kerja, terus keluar entah ke mana but one thing for sure, dia akan melepak kat Kedai Kopi L****g(confidential — to protect him to be known). Dia pernah tanye aku kenapa aku tak jawab soalan dia. Hey, come on.. He always ask a silly question that might not have any answers for it.

Itu satu hal, yang latest baru-baru ni dia buat aku bengang dengan soalan dia walhal dia tahu yang aku takde transport untuk balik kampung. “Minggu ni balik Kemaman dok?”, I don’t know why that kinda question came across his mind. Then I replied “Bakpe tanye soalan bodo gitu sedangkan mu tau doh kereta aku rosok.” and he was stumbled with my reply. Dahlah kereta baru break down, boleh pulak tanye aku soalan bangang macam tu.

Aku tak suka nak buat dia macam tu, tapi please change to be a better person. Bukan aku nak mengungkit, tapi as to teach him how hard is life and how pain it is. Sebagai pengajaran kepada sesape yang bace blog ni, aku harap korang tak buat something yang boleh membuatkan orang give up hope dengan kita. Aku tak perfect, tapi aku cuba untuk memperbaiki diri dan mengatasi segala kelemahan diri ni.

Last month was a tsunami in my life. He didn’t even giving hands for financial problems that occured. I was really pissed of by him. Dia ingat bapak aku Bill Gates ke? As if bapak aku Bill Gates sekalipun, takkan nak depend his life on me kan? Umur dah makin lanjut, tapi behave like a child. Sometimes, he’s okey but most of the time he’s not. So far, aku hanya dapat merasa RM60 from him but from that amount, half of it goes to him jugak. I still remember when he first gave me RM10 at a restaurant, his eyes were looking at the money and maybe he tought that I will say “You don’t have to pay, keep your money.”, hell-no I wouldn’t say that! My financial was starting to fall from the eclipse and you want me to say that? In your dreams.. In your dreams.. Jahat ke? I don’t think so.

Kalau korang kata aku jahat, try to be in my shoe and see what will happen. Sekarang dia dah buat hal sendiri kononnya dah tak nak susahkan aku. Cara/tindakan yang dia buat bukanlah satu tindakan yang bijak. Setiap nasihat orang kita kena terima pakai bukannya protes. Entahlah, hopefully he will realize how worse his life was. Mudah-mudahan Allah akan membuka pintu hati dia dan memberi rezeki padanya, amin..

There are some ways to build-up yourself. Some I have implemented and some I will revise later on.

Introduction of building up yourself ;
First and foremost, look for persons around you. Who you live your life everyday with them — i.e : parents, co-workers, close friends, girlfriend, etc which might have an interest in you. Ask them, what they can find in you and what they expected from you. Force them to speak from their heart and not because to impress you by their words. From here, you will know what people think about you and what they wanted from you. Do some research on how to fix all the bad habits that you have.

There will be some advantages in you that might help you to cover up you weaknesses. Try to strengthen up your advantages so that your weaknesses will vague from others.

I’m trying to control my anger as it doesn’t have any strength side of me that can cover that inside me.