Regarding to this matter, I have decided to tell him that our landlord is going to let him stay. This is ridiculous, but I have no choice. After seeking for some advice from some friends and family members, aku ambil keputusan untuk tidak berlaku kejam. Not because of I am weak or felt pity on him, but because of my humanity. Enough said.

At first aku rasa guilty sebab aku buat dia macam tu. But after all I realize that if I don’t do this, he might not change into a better person. Aku still ada humanity, tapi dia masih tak sedar ape mistake dia. Hopefully dengan cara menjauhkan diri dapat mengubah dia menjadi someone.

Some of my friends will think that I’m cruel. Well I’m not like what you think. Dia masih tak berubah dan mungkin sekarang become worse kot. Balik kerja, terus keluar entah ke mana but one thing for sure, dia akan melepak kat Kedai Kopi L****g(confidential — to protect him to be known). Dia pernah tanye aku kenapa aku tak jawab soalan dia. Hey, come on.. He always ask a silly question that might not have any answers for it.

Itu satu hal, yang latest baru-baru ni dia buat aku bengang dengan soalan dia walhal dia tahu yang aku takde transport untuk balik kampung. “Minggu ni balik Kemaman dok?”, I don’t know why that kinda question came across his mind. Then I replied “Bakpe tanye soalan bodo gitu sedangkan mu tau doh kereta aku rosok.” and he was stumbled with my reply. Dahlah kereta baru break down, boleh pulak tanye aku soalan bangang macam tu.

Aku tak suka nak buat dia macam tu, tapi please change to be a better person. Bukan aku nak mengungkit, tapi as to teach him how hard is life and how pain it is. Sebagai pengajaran kepada sesape yang bace blog ni, aku harap korang tak buat something yang boleh membuatkan orang give up hope dengan kita. Aku tak perfect, tapi aku cuba untuk memperbaiki diri dan mengatasi segala kelemahan diri ni.

Last month was a tsunami in my life. He didn’t even giving hands for financial problems that occured. I was really pissed of by him. Dia ingat bapak aku Bill Gates ke? As if bapak aku Bill Gates sekalipun, takkan nak depend his life on me kan? Umur dah makin lanjut, tapi behave like a child. Sometimes, he’s okey but most of the time he’s not. So far, aku hanya dapat merasa RM60 from him but from that amount, half of it goes to him jugak. I still remember when he first gave me RM10 at a restaurant, his eyes were looking at the money and maybe he tought that I will say “You don’t have to pay, keep your money.”, hell-no I wouldn’t say that! My financial was starting to fall from the eclipse and you want me to say that? In your dreams.. In your dreams.. Jahat ke? I don’t think so.

Kalau korang kata aku jahat, try to be in my shoe and see what will happen. Sekarang dia dah buat hal sendiri kononnya dah tak nak susahkan aku. Cara/tindakan yang dia buat bukanlah satu tindakan yang bijak. Setiap nasihat orang kita kena terima pakai bukannya protes. Entahlah, hopefully he will realize how worse his life was. Mudah-mudahan Allah akan membuka pintu hati dia dan memberi rezeki padanya, amin..